Take it one step at a time, I went from being so nervous and excited by dialing a sex chat line when I was 20, so nervous I was literally shaking and sweating head to toe listening to a bloke having a wank, to how I am now, I can easily go to an organised gay event, get naked in front of dozens of guys, ride hot lads in front of others no problem. Just take your time and move at a pace you feel comfortable with. Remembering my first meet with a guy at his place, it kind of freaked me out, as I could see this photo of an old lady on the wall, looked like a 1980s pic of the guys granny, in my head I was like " oh no the dead granny with Deidre Barlow specs is cursing me for doing gay fun with her grandson" and then this was the first time I had touched another guys cock, I was like oh that's how it feels, didn't expect that, but on time you go onto more with guys and become confident and relaxed. 99% of the time meets at guys homes have been good, bar one or two where I had to run out quick because the 'flatmate' as he put it, aka nust have been the husband or boyfriend was pulling into the drive! Or once where a guy got on top of me and changed his mind mid action wtf! But other than that over the years all good. Would recommend organised events as they can often be good where you can chat and relax with lads at the bar, and go slowly from there to a private space together, saunas can be good for that too |
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You will very soon cum to enjoy and relax 
