This is really strange to post as I’ve never actually started a new forum post. I’ve always hid away my feelings as I felt dirty and depraved. After a divorce and then a failed relationship, I’ve accepted I will be on my own forever. I’m accepting and not hiding from being a sissy girl. I’m a product of my childhood and have battled depression and had countless counsellors. Am just accepting what I am and trying to be happy. Hope this helps other people battling with their emotions and feelings.