I often think about looking for a kinky dominant man to take control, surprise me and show me that it’s fun and sexy to do as I am told. Could be role play, companionship play, could be power play or fun control. Does this resonate with other guys. Are you who I am describing and I need to meet you?
It can be fun to surrender control to someone more dominant.
During COVID lockdown I had someone who would message me all the time, and convince me to do all sorts for him