UPDATE.... The divorce is finally done and now I am free to explore my sexual feelings. For years I secretly watched TG, TS, & CD videos and looked at pics on this site, and she never knew about this other side of me and how much it turns me on. I have serveral toys I have played with and once asked her if she would consider using a strap-on, on me. She balked at the idea. Anyway, I am free to play and explore to see what is out there.